For Daniel. Many thanks, friend.
Consonance: agreement or compatibility between opinions or actions
Dissonance: 1.) lack of harmony among musical notes; 2.) a tension or clash resulting from the combination of two disharmonious or unsuitable elements
A month ago I moved out of Santa Fe, NM. It was my first home away from home when I moved out of New Jersey in 2008. I was an impassioned and eager 18-year-old, thirsty for the world. I settled into the desert. Three years later I heard that tapping again. It said, “Take your feet to new places. Let your eyes see what has been unseen.” Istanbul became a home. And it didn’t take three years to settle there, only three months. I found a place for myself on the other side of the world. I was in Istanbul when my consciousness began to wake up to the idea that home is where you focus your energy. It is the places, spaces, and activities that enable your heart to exist in its bliss.
My roommate in Istanbul had given me a birthday gift while there – a bookmark. It read, “Where ever you go, there you are.” And isn’t it true? After Istanbul I moved back to Santa Fe. A year and a half later, the tapping came again. I took my feet across Europe with only a backpack. My body and my pack became my home. This liberated me.
Today, I am one month gone from Santa Fe and I am exploring home within myself. I spoke to a friend the other day about this idea that people respond differently to the places where they dwell. He asked me, “Which places create consonance and which create dissonance?” And that got me thinking, does my soul respond more to the consonance or dissonance of a place?
Wherever I go, there I am. Still wondering how to better my brain, how to follow my bliss. How to create enough-ness in my actions. And sometimes, words do not suffice to answer these questions. So the knowing in your gut is all you can go with. Sometimes the visceral experience is all we have.